My Letter to Kevin

I probably erased this letter about 10 times. I just wanted to say that I miss you. Every year during Memorial Day I find myself thinking about you more and more. It’s not like I don’t think about you but being bombarded with other people’s memories and seeing their loved ones forces me to reminisce about you. Our friendship wasn’t perfect but the months leading up to your death was perfect. We’d meet in the hallway and sit there for an hour or so and talk about how stupid we were for fighting. I have so many regrets when it comes to you. The biggest one is not letting you come with me that night. If you’d come with me, you probably would’ve been alive today. I know I shouldn’t blame myself for other people’s actions but it’s hard. I feel stupid for even writing this, I lost other people since you been gone, but your death is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to deal with. The difference between you and those people is that they got to live their lives, start families, see the world and meet the love of their lives. You didn’t have that opportunity and I think that’s what kills me the most. Your life was just beginning, and it was all taken away.

I won’t make this long and drawn out because I’m too overwhelmed with emotions just know every time, I see someone with dark skin that shines like gold I think of you. Every time I hear someone laughing out loud, I think of you. Every time the sun shines a little bit warmer on my skin, I think of you and every time I look up to the sky, I think of you. I will never forget you. I was blessed to have you in my life and look forward to the day that we meet again.

Love

Syan.